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Saturday, May 30th, 2009
4:30 pm	t-dat "and CLG is totally C. I mean he's a G you met in the L, how right in the H can he be?" Current Mood: contemplative (name the stars)
Saturday, April 18th, 2009
4:36 pm	about thursday... S: Well, if that's what you mean, then don't think he's crazy at all. E: no? S:I think you're an amazing woman, and if this Kevin thinks that you click together, then he'd be foolish not to do anything he can to get a chance with you. Just thought this was interesting, considering it's such a different view than ryan and timmy took. Also, you are so nice to me, for no reason. There should be more people like you. Current Mood: contemplative (name the stars)
Saturday, April 4th, 2009
10:54 am	Thursday March 26, 2009 ---------> July 17, 2010 Just had to make a note of this. (name the stars)
Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
7:34 pm	Tomorrow I'm going to go down and hang out with Bonny(ie?) while Jonathan comes up and talks with Charlie about computers (blah). I'm actually very excited about this. I hardly ever spend time with anyone besides Charlie and Timmy, and I NEVER spend time with other women. And I really like her and we've been thinking about getting together for what seems like a long time. Plus, babies!!!!! I think it will be way cool. Maybe the four of us will even do something one of these days ....holy cow another couple! Insanity. (name the stars)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2009
9:39 pm	Man, I'm pissed. (name the stars)
Saturday, November 8th, 2008
5:07 pm	and also I haven't really heard much from S lately and I'm really okay with that. I don't call him or dream about him or sit around waiting for him, and I don't freak and leap outta my skin when he does get in touch with me. I think I'm finally really past that silly bullshit. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm actually in a happy, stable, fulfilling relationship. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm too busy to really worry about it. Or maybe it's just that I finally realized there's no point in giving a damn. I'll always care how he is, but that doesn't mean I'll always be there for him. Real friends care about something besides themselves sometimes. I've already got a few and I don't need any more right now. I don't think we were ever as close as I imagined we were, and it actually doesn't bother me. I'm happy. I'm zen. I'm enlightened. Barack Obama is our next president. I'm going to graduate college. All is right with the world. Current Mood: bouncy (name the stars)
Saturday, July 26th, 2008
10:20 am	I wanna be the inspiration for your room going silent... I had a dream about you last night. I called you and you answered. I went to your house and I explained myself. You forgave me. And you pretended to understand. And then we just held each other for a very long time, in a fully clothed, completely non-sexual, comforting kind of way. I really miss you. And I wish things were different. Please don't leave me forever this time. Current Mood: cold (name the stars)
Saturday, April 19th, 2008
7:19 pm	Fred Eaglesmith is here tonight and I got a ticket and was really excited about going. Unfortunately I've been working for ten hours now and I don't feel super great. Plus, the show starts at 8, which is the same time I get off work, and I haven't eaten anything yet and I would have to change because I'm way too hot and unsexy in my big old pants and Buzzcocks shirt. So, I guess I'm gonna hang out at home with the man instead. *sigh* It's my decision and I could go, I know, but I don't wanna get there and park and end up missing everything and I also don't want to be grumpy or feel icky tomorrow. Oh well, I told UJ to go ahead and get rid of my ticket if he can and hopefully old Fred will come back around soon. Anywhere close would be okay, as I'm totally open to travel in the summertime if I can afford it. Tonight I'll rest up good so tomorrow we can clean before mummy comes to meet Strangles. And I already decided I will only be slightly disappointed with myself. There WILL be a next time. Current Mood: jealous (name the stars)
Thursday, April 10th, 2008
8:05 pm	well... I turned 21. I was hoping it wouldn't bring any bad news. Silly me. They say I can try to get on disability or I can get pregnant. Otherwise, I'm kinda screwed. Why can't things be easy? Current Mood: stressed (name the stars)
Saturday, February 23rd, 2008
10:43 am	Things are looking up, I think. Current Mood: hopeful (4 the same | name the stars)
Saturday, November 17th, 2007
10:49 am	Steve called Thursday night. I guess I'm not really surprised. He left a voicemail, and I managed to hold out a whole thirty seconds before I broke down and called him back. I am weak, pathetic individual. (name the stars)
Friday, August 17th, 2007
3:22 pm	I'm bored and I haven't done anything this pointless in awhile, so I figured I might as well. 1: First grade teacher's name: I don't remember, but she was fat and mean and had no business working with children. 2: Last word you said: "while" 3: Last song you sang: The Taste of Red-Butch Walker 4: Last person you hugged: Charlie! :) 6: Last time you said I don't remember: this afternoon. ::PRESENT:: 9: What color socks are you wearing: NO socks. 10. What's under you bed right now?: Whatever it is, it's Charlie's. 11: What time did you wake up today: 8ish. 12: Current taste: coffee 13: Current hair: down and a little frizzy. bleh. There are a lot of questions missing, I do not know why 16: Current longing: I wants to go home and watch Monk with my hunny on our NEW PROJECTOR!! 17: Current desktop background: Dorothy's garden. 18: Current worry: School 19: Current hate: construction 20: Current favorite article of clothing: my little pink tanktop. it's comfy comfy and it makes the boys go oooooohh 21: Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: hair, eyes, arms, voice (i guess that's not a physical feature, but you can't go wrong with a nice voice) 22: Last CD that you listened to: all the way through: Butch Walker-Letters, Currently in CD player: Butch Walker and the Rise and Fall of the Let's Go Out Tonights 23: Favorite place to be: on my couch. or anywhere with my hunny bear or my mama. (depending on mood) 24: Least favorite place: any public restroom. icky 25: Time you wake up in the morning?: 8ish, mostly. Whenever Charlie starts to hit me with pillows. 27: Favorite color: pink, purple, black 28: Do you believe in an afterlife: no sir 30: Current favorite word/saying: "your mother sucks cocks in hell" obviously. 31: Favorite book: all of them. Books are the best thing in the world. Besides those tiny little donuts, which they don't sell in Maine. Bastards. 32: Favorite season: Spring. Although summer's catching up lately. 33: One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Tina. ::FUTURE:: 35: Where do you want to go for college?: Already there. USM. uh-huh 36: What is your career going to be like: I'm gonna marry rich and make babies 37: How many kids do you want: Lots. 4-6? Likely to change when I actually start to have them. But definitely a few. ::HAVE YOU EVER...:: 39: Said "I love you" and meant it: yes 40: Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc : yes, big ol' Doyle has kicked my ass on more than one occasion 41: Been to New York: Yes, although I pretty much just stood there 42: Been to Florida: Yes, and the seminar was awesome, though Disney was an amazing disappointment 43: Been to California: no 44: Been to Hawaii: Yes. It rained and rained. 45: Been to Mexico: no 46: Been to China: no 48: Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Maybe? 52: Do you have a crush on someone: Just Charlie. Charlie, Charlie. I still get that fluttery feeling everytime I see him, even though I've known him forever now and I see him all day every day. Heh, I feel silly saying that, but it's true true. Nobody else for me. 53: What book are you reading: House of Sand and Fog (the story is really something, though the writing style's not really for me) 54: What is the worst feeling in the world: envy. Not like, oh man I wish I had your car, but like ohwowthatwastheonlythinginmylifethatreallymeantanythingandyoutookitawayandi'mnotsurehowtoevergetitbackandwhowantstolivenow? nothing has ever been worse. 55:What is the first thing you think about when you wake in the morning: Charlie, followed closely by the kitty cats, and then the list of things i have to get done that day. 56: How many rings before you answer: depends on who it is/what i'm doing/where the phone is. 59: Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Charlie won't let me :( 64: Do you do drugs?: just the herb 65: Do you drink: rarely 67: What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: anything for color-treated hair. Loreal, maybe? 68: What are you most scared of: getting murdered in my sleep while Charlie's away on business. Don't call me unreasonable. 69: What clothes do you sleep in?: none 70: Who is the last person that called you: charlie to tell me he got us a PROJECTOR!! 71: Where do you want to get married: outside 72: If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: i would love to never think about her again. 73. Who do you hate: Avril, duh 74: Been In Love: yes 75: Are you timely or always late: I'm late a lot, but I've been known to be on time occasionally 76: Do you have a job: yes 77: Do you like being around people?: depends on my mood and the people. not generally, but there are a few folks I just love (charlie, my brother, all the kids back home) 78: Best feeling in the world?: safety 79: Are you for world peace: yes! unrealistic as it may be. 80: Are you a health freak: not at all, although I tend to eat healthier than most people I know 81: Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: People go after me. If they're lucky, I'll respond. 82. You want someone you can't have?: Nope, nope. I used to want someone I didn't have, but I knew I could and that kept me going. And now I've got him, see how perfect? 83: Are you lonely right now: not at all 84: Ever afraid you'll never get married: yes, terrified. although it seems like an unlikely scenario 85: Do you want to get married: yes, although if i don't that's okay too. you don't have to be married to have someone and be loved. 86: Do you want kids?: Yes, so bad. Babies, babies, babies, everywhere babies. YES! ::IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...:: 87: Cried: nope 88: Bought Something: yes? well, Gabe bought it, but I gave him the money... 89: Gotten Sick: nope 90: Sang: of course 91: Said I Love You: I think maybe to my grandma, but that might have been more than 48 hours *shrug* 92: Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: yes, and i did, and everyone was happy. 93: Met Someone: don't think so 94: Moved On: No sir 95: Talked To Someone: yes 96: Had A Serious Talk: borderline? 97: Missed Someone: yes, but he's home now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 98: Hugged Someone: yuppers 99: Yelled at Someone: no 100: Thought About Someone You Can't Be with: Danny maybe, but he'll come out one of these days. PS-My trip was fabulous, of course. But it's nice to finally be home. Details later, if I get around to it. Current Mood: chipper (name the stars)
Friday, May 11th, 2007
12:18 pm	I moved again. I live in South Portland, in Olde English now, which isn't really where I want to be and I'm living with another boyfriend, which isn't really what I planned. It's okay though, I didn't have to give up any kitties which is the one thing I was really worried about. And he's a good man. Plus, paying half this rent is much cheaper than paying all of the old rent. And half the rent is the ONLY thing I pay for, so I'm really saving. Thank heaven for a handsome old man with a good job. As soon as I finish the paper I'm putting off writing at this very second, I will be done for the semester. Hurray for being a Junior! I plan on working every single day for at least the first half of the summer, but no homework, so it won't be so bad. Shanti might come stay with us for a week or so at the end of July, which would totally rock, and I might go back home with him for another week or so when he leaves, which would rock even more. Of course, it'd be nice if Charles wanted to come too, but he doesn't do much. Overall, things are definitely getting better and that's enough for me right now. Current Mood: accomplished (1 the same | name the stars)
Sunday, November 19th, 2006
2:17 pm	Quickly... I live in a gorgeous apartment up on Munjoy Hill now. I will live there ALONE soon, and am very, very excited about this. Aaron is moving out. It is not as sad as everyone tries to make it, just stressful and exhausting. I really am looking forward to living alone, although I am having to work incredible hours at more than one job to manage it. For the time being, Aaron is staying in the house (only until he finds somewhere to go) and I have been staying, mostly, with a friend of mine. Not a new boyfriend, just someone who treats me nicely and gives me a bed to sleep in. It isn't easy, but it's much better than it could be. School is going okay. I'm rockin the double major and enjoying being in school for the first time since about second grade. My mom and Jeff split up in the summertime, I don't know if I mentioned. Our Thanksgiving dinners just keep getting smaller and smaller, we're out two more this year. That's okay, though, I've been able to spend time with just my mum for the first time since I was very small, and I never even realized how much I really missed her. She's been very good to me lately also (including letting me sleep on her couch some), there is no better mother in the world. My grandmother, also, is the shit. I'm so glad I've got the family I do. And now ya'll know where I'm at. Don't expect more anytime soon. Current Mood: working (name the stars)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
3:27 pm	We're moving on June 28th and I cannot wait. Aaron has a much better job, as do I (fuck the drydock, yo). I'm working and I don't have a lot of time to talk, but I'm lonely for friends lately. I mean, I love aaron, and I see ryan and Kevin and that's wonderful, but I miss the old days. I used to be out all night every night, always with different people, and never doing the same thing. Now Aaron and I are asleep by 10:30. What happened? Steve came over yesterday and it was the best thing in the world. I have missed him so much. I thought I would never see him again. My god, it made me happy. Current Mood: cheerful (1 the same | name the stars)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
7:45 pm	Hello lovelies, I'm still alive. Current Mood: calm (name the stars)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
6:50 am	I wanna be your big win It's so romantic Attack in the shower five minutes in bed A moan and a squeeze A cough and a butt. What happened to us? Mike is gone. To the army. I hope he writes. I hope he doesn't die. I don't know how he can be so crazy. Aaron moved. My mom found the place for him. It's huge. Cori and Joanna are living there too. Joanna is okay. It's kinda far away. We don't have school today, and I guess that's nice. We had Monday and Tuesday off too, and I didn't go on Friday, so there ya go. I got in to USM, but haven't heard back from anywhere else yet. I spent all my money on things involving Aaron and now I'm broke as hell and can't go see Ryan this weekend. I wanted to live with Jason, but it's too late now. Aaron is supposed to come with me when I move this summer. I am filled with Skepticism. Justin is gone again. I don't know where to. I'm trying desperately to feel okay. It's not going well. Current Mood: rejected Current Music: the lonely 1-Wilco (3 the same | name the stars)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
12:53 am	Today I went to Aaron's and he was very much asleep. Brennen and I both tried to wake him, but it was pointless. So we played with tape measures. Eventually he did wake up...kinda. Something happened and he snapped at me. And I started to cry. I felt really bad, but not as bad as he seems to. Later he said he's not gonna be an incensitive prick to me, and have I ever wondered why he doesn't drink very often? Ok, so there's more to the story than what I wrote down. On another note, I love Brennen. I wish he was mine. Yeah, Melissa broke up with Cori, so I didn't talk to him about any of this either. Poor Cori, he needs hugs. I hope everyone at work drops dead. Except Derrick and Shane, Derrick's awesome, and Shane's a sweetie pie face. Everyone else is a big hairy dick. Current Mood: hot (name the stars)
Friday, April 23rd, 2004
11:53 am	Comment or die Ask me three (3) questions that you want me to answer, and i'll answer them Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Hell Yes-Alkaline Trio (6 the same | name the stars)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
6:54 pm	I turned seventeen on March 23rd. No one cared. (4 the same | name the stars)